The Pain I DesireI find a pair of scissors and a knife and I looks. I feel the urge. I pick them up and start making a new pain.One so different from the intense pain on the inside. My hear is broken. There is a pain on the outside. Ah....sweet release. The scissors are dull. I press harder. The knife is sharper. It brings blood. It over powers the blood running out of my heart on the inside. Cutting, piercing my flesh over powers the hurt, rage, sorrow I feel on the inside. I go to the bathroom. I wash my cuts. I have to take my watch off less it get wet. I dry my wrist off and put my watch back on. I go to the cabinet, pull out the salt. Pour a little intoThe Pain I Desire
AcceptedI have changed. You don't like it. I am not a little girl anymore and you want me to stay that way. You say I treat you bad. All I have ever wanted from you was to accept me . I treat you the way I do because you treat me bad. You call me names that pierce my heart. I love you and you tell me I don't. Do you realize what that does to me? It makes me feel unworthy. It makes me want to hurt to take away the pain you have caused. You say its all me. You give me things and do things for me but its not what I want. All I wasn't is respect and love which you think I don't deserve. I love you with every fiber of my being. You treat me like im not anAccepted
Loveing PainI listen to our song.Loveing Pain
I feel my face quiver with pain and sadness.
I look all around me and see the blood, feel the pain on my arms.
I see your face, hovering, so close but yet so far.
I reach out to you, but you turn away.
I feel the tears of blood pour out of my eyes, tears of pain, hurt, sadness.
I feel my life slip through my veins like an acid.
I feel it slip through my hands...
I cant hold back the scream, I cant hold back the pain.
I feel it churn inside me, bubble, seethe. All consuming. All engulfing.
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